Maybe this wide country just stretches your life to a thinness
just trying to take it in, trying to calculate in it what you must do,
the airy bay at its head scatters your thoughts like someone going mad
from science and birds pulling your hair, ice invades your nostrils in
chunks, land fills your throat, you are so busy with collecting the
north, scrambling to the Arctic so wilfully, so busy getting a handle to
steady you to this place you get blown into bays and lakes and fissures
you have yet to see, except on a map in a schoolroom long ago but you
have a sense that whole parts of you are floating in heavy lake water
heading for what you suspect is some other life that lives there, and
you, you only trust moving water and water that reveals itself in
colour. It always takes long to come to what you have to say, you have
to sweep this stretch of land up around your feet and point to the
signs, pleat whole histories with pins in your mouth and guess at the
fall of words.
—Dionne Brand, Land To Light On.
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